So like, heyyy to the fact I have not posted in FIVE months. Hellllooooo! Have you missed me? I have certainly missed writing as my own personal, unedited self. The end of junior year came and went like I blinked once, and suddenly, I was back home in Boston for summer. Summer, as in, living at home and interning full-time in Boston, with an added 2 and a half to 3 hours a day of commuting time. In an effort to provide myself with some sort of balance while adjusting to working full time at a professional job and commuting over an hour each way, I limited my screen time outside of the office - my personal blog was pushed to the back burner and neglected from April until now, mid-September.
A year ago, I think I would have beaten myself up for taking such a long hiatus from something I am so passionate about and dedicated to. After this summer, though, I am the opposite of disappointed in myself for letting a few things drift to the backburner. An essential part of balance: priorities.
I am sure many of my readers remember my post about being self-full at the end of last summer when I was ashamed of how easy it was for me to kick all my healthy habits and mindfulness to the curb. My priorities were with the right intention - to survive working a full time job and still enjoy a college summer with friends while doing it. Crazy, out-of-whack intention? Definitely not. However, my execution of meeting my priorities failed. I allowed myself to be lazy and forego things that made me feel good about myself because my "other" priorities were too important.
This summer was different - you didn't see me writing here. But this time, it was because I made it a priority to stay off my computer screen (Netflix included, peeps) when I wasn't working. Staring deep into a computer screen for 8 hours a day can become draining quickly, and I wanted to save my digital creative energy for work. I was still able to write and express myself through my company's blog, Hacks & Flacks, where I published four (!!) articles during my internship focusing on my very personal journey to interning at March, my take on what companies actually look for in an intern, some advice on writing social media content, and finally, how you can make professional gains from a personal blog (weird, right?). One of the coolest parts: two out of the four got picked up by a daily PR brief, In The Know.
Another thing about priorities: they're not something you can half-ass.
Well, I mean, you could - but then they're not priorities at all. They're just one more thing you "should" be doing. I learn that lesson over and over when I make priorities for my mental and physical health, and then sometimes, don't measure up for myself. It can take a long time to build mental discipline - it's a conscious decision, again and again.
I learn the importance of keeping my priorities straight the hard way, more often than not. I've nearly thrown up in yoga class because I ate poorly hours before. I've shown up to work or class hungover and spent the entire day being unproductive and regretting every second of the night before. I've said something out of anger to someone I care about - and immediately wished I was more intentional with my words.
Despite these mistakes and lessons learned (some more than once), the most important thing about priorities: they never expire. Ever. They never stop working or forgiving if you're willing to work and forgive, too.
At the end of many of my yoga classes, our teacher often reminds us that now is the time to begin again. To start over, and to leave anything we're not proud of and everything that isn't serving us in the past. I think that's the most important thing this summer taught me. I can begin again every single day. Heck, I can begin again every hour, if I need to. Every minute, every conversation, every action, every single time I struggle or succeed, is another chance to prioritize what's important to me. And if that's not comforting, if that's not reassuring, if that isn't enough to make you want to reevaluate your priorities and try again tomorrow, then I don't know what is.
Just living, learning + loving and writing some of it down along the way. Senior + Director of Panhellenic Recruitment at Elon University in North Carolina. Currently interning + curating social for some badass clients at SFW in Greensboro, NC. Yogi, sightseer, shopaholic, foodie, writer.
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